Regrets

I wanted to see you so bad. But when I had the chance, I let it slip right in my hands. I wish I could bring back the time where I should have not given up that opportunity to meet you in the flesh. That one night I could have heard you sing, I mean rap and I could sing with you, together. I could even exhaust my voice to cheer you up, to give you energy because I know you're tired physically. I could stare at you until the last minute, while my heart is beating so fast and there's this thing in my stomach. Butterflies. Full of butterflies. I'm in bliss because the day has finally come. When you give us the chance to see you, to hear you, to communicate with you, and to enjoy with you. That one day, the night when I JUST gave you up. The opportunity that I JUST missed.

I don't know why it hurts to see your friends having such a best time of their life with them while you were having the worst day of your life at your house, with just your laptop on. I don't want to hear anything that happen that night. I don't want to hear their spazzing from anywhere. I don't want to see how happy they are and their feels about it. But, it isn't right. Just because I'm jealous doesn't mean I have to be angry with them. They have too much feels and can't contain it. I understand. I'm a fangirl, too.

A fangirl who missed her chance to see her second ULTIMATE BIAS. MIN YOONGI/SUGA. I don't know. I just can't still get over this thing. It's just too, regretful.

I hope they'll come back again. And I'll make sure, I'll be there. No matter what it takes. I'm not going to let opportunities let slip in my hands again.