A Brand New Ending

“I love you. But I have to say goodbye. I’m sorry.”

It’s almost four months since the last time we talked. The 2-year relationship we had come to a halt. I get tired of oft-repeated things occurring between us. It was not that easy for me to say my au revoir. It was not facile to utter those words to someone I had loved the most and brought heaven-scent feeling into my life. You may think that I have obdurate feelings to rend your heart and leave you with my absurd excuse. That with all the challenges we both surmount, I’m enunciating I get tired of all these things happening between us. I’m asinine, I know.

I always think of you.

I thought getting occupied to my studies would prop up to my process of moving on. But I was utterly wrong. Every little thing keeps reminding me of you. Every minute, the memories I had with you keep flashing into my mind. Someone I am with for more than two years, someone I loved more than anyone else, someone that loved me more like of his world, how can I forget someone like you in a breeze?

I am missing you.

Your smile, your laugh, your jokes, your face, your hands, and everything in you, I miss it all. Every moment that we spent together, the blissful feeling I felt when I am with you, the things you did for me to make me happy, your hands that fits with mine, your hugs that gave me warmth, and everything you did for me, I miss it all. The long talks, the heart-to-heart discussion, the funny moments, your made-up stories and everything you had told me, I miss it all.

I regretted what I did.

Things were not the same anymore. I wounded your heart and no one could ever heal it. I felt guilty to what have I done to someone precious as you. You’re aching more than I am hurting. I am heedless in making such reckless decision that leaves me bemoaning.

I wanted you back.

I am trying to fix your broken heart and try to heal it with my own heart. I am asking for another chance to make it up to you. I don’t need anybody else because all I need is you. My heart needs you as I needed you in my entire life. I know it will not be easy to forgive me with the foolish things I did to you. But I’m trying my very best to prove you that I can be as strong as anyone could be.

Let’s make a brand new ending.

Even though we don’t have happy beginning, we can still start a brand new ending. And that is to stay together until the very last seconds of our life.