Best Thing I Never Had

I am I. I liked two different people in my same class. The heartthrob guy that likes me since the class even starts and the transferred guy that been so quiet that didn’t talked to anyone else. Neither of them knew that I like them. It will just be a big trouble for the three of us. And so I keep myself silent.

Days had passed and I started liking the quiet guy even more. He has something in him that I find it interesting and I want to know him even more. I was startled when he looked back at me and I immediately turn my face to the board. He caught me staring at him. Ashamed of myself.

Many chances had given and I was able to talk with him. He was nice but he’s the coldest guy I have ever known. Many opportunities had come and I was able to spend some time with him. But he talked less as to what I’m expecting. I only got some information about him but none of them is personal and important.

Months had passed and I think we are getting along with each other. He was just cold outside but very gentle inside. I think I was the only one whom he gave the chance to see the real him. I was in bliss. My feelings for him even grew stronger.

But this happiness comes to halt in an instance. My long-time suitor come and tried to separate us when things are going well for both of us. I didn’t want the next things that happen. My suitor got enrages and eventually knock off the new guy. The new guy didn’t fight back and I eventually come in between them and stop my suitor from hurting the one I like the most. The new guy tried to get up and left the scene without saying a word.

I followed him and found him in the rooftop of the school. I found him sitting there with his back facing me. I immediately ran towards him and asked if his okay. He was just starring at the sky with expressionless face. I hugged him. But he put my arms away and turned his back on me. I stopped him.

“I like you.”

He turned his face to me with his poker face.

“Save that for another guy. I don’t like you.”

With that, he left me speechless.

I thought we could be a perfect fit for each other. I thought I could be as happy as we were so many times before.

I thought I already had him, but I know I didn’t. He’s the best thing I never had.