These past few days, all I wanted is to be alone - distant from anybody else. I shut people out because I always thought it would be best for both our worlds. I kept running away from people who cared for me, who were always been there when I needed someone to talk to, people who helped me get up when I fall, people who always lights my way when I’m crossing the wrong path, people who offered me a shoulder to lean on when I cry, people who just love me and truly cared for me. But I’m just a freaking idiot because I set all those aside and becomes so selfish that I just tossed them like they meant nothing to me even though they give me reason to live again – happiness.
Now, I realized, I am completely insane for pushing them away from my life. I needed them more than anybody else. They showed me that there are still people who were willing to keep me because they thought I was precious, that they choose to stay rather than letting me go because they thought I deserve to be happy.
And they were right. I so freaking deserve to be happy. I don’t deserve all these suffering caused by people who I thought brings happiness to me when all they did is leave me with nothing but pain.
Being happy is a choice. And today, I choose happiness over despair. I choose to smile over being down in the dumps. I choose to live my life again with full of hopes and leave those things that hurt me, forget my pasts, moved on and look forward to a brighter me.
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